Motivation vs Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD)
Today is a Motivation vs Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) day.
All day, I have been sitting wrestling with myself.
I need to produce articles for my website. I have a pile of things that I must write, organise and complete by certain days. I have planned it all out, made notes and rough drafts. All the preparation has been done - all I need to do is sit and write.
For some reason, even though I love to write and it comes naturally to me, I can’t seem to muster up enough enthusiasm to start.
There is nothing different about today. Nothing different about my routine. So why does it feel like my brain has been surrounded by a think fog? Why don’t I feel the usual motivation to get my work done? Why don’t I feel like making food, and just want to snack? Why am I feeling tired even though I have had my usual amount of rest? Why am I trying to resist grabbing the duvet, curling up on the sofa and watching films all afternoon? Why does nothing seem to light that rocket fuel and get me going?
Why? Well, it’s October. That’s why.
This is the start of it. This is the start of my SAD days.